Saturday night...

I think I'll have another cigarette as my battery dies on the phone
I'm blogging from tonight.
As most of you know already I'm going to be a father. I'm engaged to
be a husband. I'm at the perfect place in my life to express how I feel.
My life has been judged by many, and for that I'm grateful but also
weary of what I post publicly. There's a lot to say, a lot to share
with the world. I'm a different man now. Hell, I'm a man now. The head
of a household, the guy who wears the pants in the relationship. I'm
in love and blessed to have a "baby in the oven" with the woman of my
dreams. So many thoughts and ideas and wonders fill my brain as my
lady and baby sleep just feet away.

How will I be as a dad?
How can I be as a husband?
How will my life change even more than it already has in the past month?
What will I learn?
What have I already discovered?
Will our baby be a boy or a girl?

I'm confident. More so now than ever. But I know in confidence to look
out for the unkown and be ready for anything that comes my way. I'm
ready to be a dad, I'm ready to be Stacey's life partner. I'm here in
the now, tryig to be better than I was a few hours ago. This is me,
this is real. This is the life I've been handed.
I'm still trying to grasp the idea that this would can end life as
quickly as it can create it.

Life is crazy. I dunno how many times I've written that here, but it
never ceases to be true. My mom told me on her deathbed that life
never slows down until you die. I beleive that 100%. if it's not this
it's that and if it's not nothing it's something.

Life is neither black nor white.

Thanks for reading.

Marc

Peace,
-Marc

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